JoaoRui

Again in Oporto. The streets seem more familiar to me - the roads pressed against the buildings as if it were against their will and only feet could walk between them.Breyner 85 is an old house with an out of sight roof and a piano in the corner of the room waiting ... waiting ... pianos always seem to be waiting ... they are patients brothers. I think that I’ve already been here, that I know the wood of the doors and she knows my secrets.The hallways become tighter as if they wanted to return me to the secrets. And each time I climb the stairs the steps seem to grow, or maybe the feet become heavier rediscovering old steps and gestures that are not of today. There is something particularly poignant in old houses. And it is never about the present, it’s always about the past. So when I cross the entry it’s like finding my whole life. My mother told me of the prayer of St. Antonio; she also told me that the lost thing that goes over the water, the prayer loses its authority. Whenever I cross a river, I remember this and that I probably lost something here, or maybe it was on the other side – So I walk back a few yards over the bridge and look at banks of the river looking for the steps of the lost thing. But nothing ... Nor I have found her, nor she has found me.